Lying on my bed while typing. I hadn't gone to your blog for quite awhile but my hands was itching and I went there. Reading your posts made me smile. How much you have change. How much i envy a girl like you. Always beautiful, always growing and changing into someone better, and never fail to make me smile without you knowing. I don't know how many readers I have but I think your the only one.
Maybe its wrong, or maybe its just meant to be. This feelings are too strong for me to lie to myself. I could not resist. I tried staying away but it just made me grow closer to you. I know you might not be fond of love right now and with all your respect I backed off. Im just waiting for a day, with just glimpse of hope, hoping if we are meant to be, Allah we bring us closer together. No matter what, I'll always be by your side. I'll always stick around no matter how far you'd push me. Because I tried being apart from you for years but it just hurts me more. I don't know why I feel this way. I've been praying everyday, hoping Allah could guide me, and all I could see is you, the one I text everyday. The one who keeps me company. I wanted to move on and maybe find another girl but I just feel like my heart only sticks with you. I accept you for who you are. I dont want to know any other girls right now. This is something I had to live with everyday, knowing I'm hiding this feelings from you, not knowing when should I tell you this.
Ya Allah kau yang maha mengetahui, jika dia milikku, jodohkan la kami ya Allah.
Jika tidak kau berikan la aku pertunjuk.
Engkau berikan la dia hidup yang dicucuri rahmatmu.
Engkau lindunginya dari malapetaka Dan juga keburukan manusia.
Engkau tenangkan la hatinya ya Allah.
Amin.
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